Just Testing

 

This is just a test.

by MKC at 2:39 AM 0 comments

Musings on Looking Back

You will remember all the things that was wrong in a past relationship and realize in hindsight all those things compounded made the relationship wrong anyway but only as we should. In reality, you could have accepted all those things all the way. Not every memory of a wrong comment, a wrong reaction would justify why you two wouldn't work out. In a relationship there isn't a sure outlook of whether you two are going to work. As long as there is nothing that drains both of your lives when together, both of you could work on any imperfection.

by MKC at 6:07 PM 0 comments

I must admit all the changes I've seen the past few years have left me confused and wondering...

Losing sight of your role model(s) could sometimes really make you stumble in the dark.

Surely, some things are wrong. Teaching us to become independent should not have to be this way. Parenting should not ever stop, and much more, spending time with your family.

A lot of unsaid thoughts and feelings make the air around really heavy and awkward. It's not okay to shrug "petty" worries off. It's not okay to head immediately to bed at night after a tiresome day at work, thinking everything will always be fine and running, while you don't even see to anyone's emotional needs. It's not okay to, figuratively, leave us all alone, just because you've grown tired of trying, or you're trying to loosen up your hold on things. This is something you should never get tired of. We are something you should never get tired of. My mind is probably too dramatic in describing this, but your hold just seems a bit too loose.

This isn't an appeal for pity... I just wanted to air this out, because this is probably the one of the things that's been making it hard for me to be really contented. We have needs. We need presence, in one way or another. We need growth. And we need to feel love... But it cannot be tended to. I wonder why. I can't see why. I'd hate to think what's in your mind, and how you let it become like this. The how's and why's make my brain shrink up, you know. I'd rather think there's a good explanation for everything. But not understanding this I guess gets too hard to bear sometimes.

by MKC at 4:55 AM 0 comments

So Wrong Just Wrong

I think it's best to keep away from people who let money problems get to their heads so much that they can't even be talked to properly without their veins tensing up, and getting defensive.

That's a time I wish they'd get injected by some hippie-state-inducing drug.

I just think something's wrong with it.

by MKC at 8:55 PM 0 comments

Foolsome

Some people probably never realize they're already being a compulsive "deceiver" for the lack of a better term.

Actually, doesn't it make them liars when they just keep on neglecting to fulfill their commitments.

It really doesn't make anyone's life easier when people give false hopes.

Eventually the people around them will become tired of getting disappointed. And they'll forever be remembered as that person who never really does what he/she says he/she will do.

People should stop saying they'll do something they don't really plan on doing. They get people worked up, expecting something that will never happen. I for one feel like a fool for getting worked up a lot of times, from holding onto people's words. I don't think I'm being dramatic. If they had no plans of doing something, they should just hold back all flimsy promises.

Or better yet, we should all stop getting our hopes up.

by MKC at 5:07 AM 0 comments

by MKC at 4:56 PM 0 comments

QOTD

by MKC at 6:36 PM 0 comments

If Only...

Looks like I forgot to sleep... while doing nothing. Or was I? Still here in the living room. Must've been too cool tonight out here that I forgot about my bed and the artificial cool air of the AC.

Anyway, I'm just waiting for breakfast~ Fave meal of the day, which I almost always miss because of sleeping late. One more hour! And maybe I'll think of something better to talk about.

For the meantime, enjoy a picture of my dog through the night. She sure slept soundly.

by MKC at 5:11 AM 0 comments

Onward Without Anchors

Forget the past. For anyone's next would-be relationship, both sides of the party don't deserve anything less than they could give. Any other people who shouldn't be in the present picture is just that unnecessary baggage to carry in either one's mind. And to the people who know better than to sulk over the past, I tip my virtual lady hat to them.

Well, I tried to end on a positive note.

by MKC at 2:50 AM 0 comments

Shoo Negatives

I just have to be good, and stay good, and maybe I'll be okay. I might not be perfect but I think my life's been too carefully lived to even feel terrible about myself. I think they should just be happy for me.

Oh my gosh. I just hate the fact that we have to stick with people who don't really know us. We have emotions too you know. We just don't bother telling you what's up cuz you grown ups are such tough meat to swallow. Ugh. 

Please make up your mind. If you want us to do our thing then just let us, and stop telling us to do this and that "for our own good." It's so confusing.

by MKC at 3:03 AM 0 comments